From my earliest childhood, I always heard the future spoken of
in superlatives: the best, the best possible, etc. There was an
unspoken assumption that each human being was uniquely suited
to something and that if they found that unique thing and worked
at it, they could become the best at something. Some of my early
successes revolved around the piano. With a bit of work, I was
able to excel beyond my older brother (five years my senior). I
kept up with other students of my teacher, though I noticed that
I was not always on top. And then, I started Junior High.
There, in my homeroom, was a Jewish kid (the first I had ever
met). Sometime during the year, he had the opportunity to play
the piano for us. We were thirteen, and this scrawny guy sat
down and ripped out a Rachmaninov prelude with ease. I had never
seen (for real) anyone play like that. I also knew that I would never play
like that. Perhaps he had found his unique
As my world continued towards adulthood, and widened its scope
of contacts, I learned repeatedly, that I was not the sharpest
knife in the drawer. Though I had a bit of talent at one thing
and another, I was pretty much above average, at best. The
illusion of “uniquely suited” turned out to be a pep talk, but
not the truth of our existence.
We live in the culture of the pep-talk, whether it is directed
towards us or not. Watching the next amazing teen on “America’s
Got Talent” can be astounding entertainment, but also a reminder
that most of us are not like that. Our mediocrity would make bad
TV. Excellence is largely a myth and a painful one for many. It
is also a distraction from what is truly excellent about
everyone and everything.
The modern cult of excellence is largely defined by our consumer
economy. Excellence sells.
There is always a message that if we found our unique thing it
would have a unique place in the market. We would be productive,
people would pay for it, like us, and we would be happy. This is
largely untrue. Most people discover that no matter their gift
or talent, that thing they do, over and over, is work.
Sometimes we like our work, and sometimes we don’t. A Picasso
can finish a painting and consider it garbage, even discarding
it. A Picasso in the trash!
While excellence is great and beauty is a cause for wonder, we
do not rightly live as part of a marketing strategy. Within the
market, we are almost all reduced to audience, ticket-buyers,
shills for the card-sharps. It is not a wise way to live a life.
I have imagined a normal day in a life, filmed in
high-definition, carefully edited and produced with a breathless
narration by Sir David Attenborough. As amusing as it might
sound, the things that make up the content of The
Blue Planet and
other such creations are as mundane as a normal day in the life
of an octopus. However, the film work manages to pay attention
in patient wonder at what would normally pass unnoticed.
Our lives are driven by false assumptions in which we become our
own greatest disappointments, all the while wondering at the
excellence of others. In truth, our lives lack true wonder. We
do not attend to the things that are most directly at hand. That
which is uniquely proper
to each of us is not our marketable skill – it is our very
existence! That we do not rightly see our own existence means
that we fail to rightly see the existence of others. We become
like a movie audience in which all of the real people sit in the
dark, unaware of one another, with the digital images dancing on
the screen as the center of our short-term world.
Fr. Thomas Hopko, in his famous 55 maxims, mentions several
times the need “to be small,” or, words to that effect. I would
modify that somewhat by saying, “Learn to be content.” In our
drive for excellence or constant improvement, we never learn the
skills of being content with anything. I have known people who
were very set on a career ladder and had no idea what to do when
they reached the top. They learned everything other than how to
St. Paul uses the term contentment as
a normative goal of the spiritual life:
Now godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out. And having food and clothing, with these we shall be content. But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and harmful lusts which drown men in destruction and perdition. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil, for which some have strayed from the faith in their greediness, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.
(1 Tim. 6:5-10)
has the meaning “having a sufficiency within yourself.”
Elsewhere, St. Paul speaks of his own experience:
…for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
Contentment allows us to remain attentive to where we are (and
who we are). The drive of our culture always distracts us and
focuses our attention to where we are not and to where we want
to be. It creates an anxiety and makes our present life a
distraction. The present is a marvelous place. It is also the
place of the heart.
The heart itself is but a small vessel, yet dragons are there, and there are also lions; there are poisonous beasts and all the treasures of evil. But there too is God, the angels, the life and the kingdom, the light and the apostles, the heavenly cities and the treasuries of grace—all things are there.
St. Macarius (H.43.7)
With that, we should be content.
Article published in English on: 05-06-2018.
Last update: 05-06-2018.